Saturday, September 09, 2006

Living for the weekend!!!!

I am back!!!! Having just got connected to the internet I felt that it would be appropriate to post an entry in my blog - I have not dissapeared completely you will be pleased to know (well my mum still checks my blog).

3 weeks down and I feel like I have been in school for a lifetime. My pupils know my name but I have had difficulty in remember 70 names. They all look so similar!!!!!

How am I getting on?

Well, the first day went well and the second, and then the honeymoon period was over for the kids and its been non-stop ever since. I have paperwork coming out of my ears and my head has not stopped buzzing. For two weeks I could not get to sleep at night because my head was full of information and ideas and worries and stressers and panics....the list goes on. I am learning to chill now, but I have to remember, not only am I new to the profession but I am new to the school as well. I think it would be much easier if you were in the school that you did your placements - one less thing to think about. But I am not, and I am slowly beginning to find my feet - well my toes anyway.

One of the most hardest things I am finding about this whole teaching thing, is the fact that I may not be liked. Obviously with friendship etc you are use to being liked. I am slowly coming round to the concept that it is OK that kids may not like me. I am not there to be liked. I am there to educate!

I am trying not to say too much about my difficulties just incase some smart cookie decides to google my name and exploit my weaknesses. This could be my cryptonite! So if you are one of those smart cookies, I am actually a nice person.

Will I ever get my life back????